February fail! Should have just drank the Coke!

I was on a downward trend at the scale... Till February!!! It's easy to say oh I should have eaten better but I realized that I had a huge accomplishment this week I have been playing a waiting game with diabetes and well I've been avoiding blood work and doctors for over a year... And I decided nope gotta go to dr! So I didn't buy my 5 bottles of regular for the week. We shared two bottles but most of the week was water for me! My body was going thru withdrawal so bad I slept for 12 hours and wanted candy in not a candy craver! I caved I sniffed out a box of chocolates! a Xmas gift I met to give someone that slipped under the tv stand...  And proceeded to eat half the box! I ate my fiances pb&j ice cream! And made him buy my chocolate on the way from class at 10pm! 

So Saturday am ww meeting big surprise I've  gained 8lbs in 8 days! 

Addiction is hard! And tonight was our movie night all the girls get together and we eat yummy food and laugh! I put out humas, chips, blue berries and a cheese featured at our local market. And yes I had a glass of soda... Key is moderation! (Keep learning) #ww 

Another season over

Ok, show of hands who watched the biggest looser? I did! Every season I kick myself for not tryin to get on the show. All I think about is ok if I got on the show how long would I make it? Would I fail a temptation challenge or one of those hold yourself in the air over a pool of pharannas jk... 

I would of course dream of making it to the make over round so that Tim & ken could help me visualize my new thinner self! 

I think though that because I'm human and doing this weight loss at home not on the ranch it's going to be more realistic timeline & results. In 3 years I've lost 40lbs and kept it off! 

Most of the women at my meetings needed to loose less weight than that to get to goal. Me I lost 40 and stalled I gave up And let myself fall to the side and stopped going to meetings.  I had all of these things neededing my attn and forgot that I need my attn!  I need to remember that at the end of a 24 hour day I need to focus at least 1 hour a day to me...