Compliments and how to accept them...

Compliments have always been something I've never received well. As a kid i was told my hair was beautiful... I ran and cut it with scissors.

I recently was told by a dear sweet older woman that compliments are not to be taken for granted. Listen to them cherish them and let them out weigh the bad words/ thoughts.

If we shift to focusing on to what's good about ourselves do we then have the bad parts fade to the background!?

Light Bulb moment this week...

I have finally figured myself out! When i have bad snacks in the house i wont eat them! but if i have nothing in the house its all i can think about! so from now on i will always have bad snacks and fruit in the house. lets see how this goes. Anyone else out there have the same issue?

I asked my "friends" one said its the devil speaking! LoL

Is food trying to tell me something?

Ok so some people get reflux w/ tomato based dishes me I react the most to fried foods. Its the hardest thing to get past though cause fried food is everywhere however recently onion rings gave me the giant FU! And I got a surprise when I went for the last ring on my boyfriends plate...
I got an onion ring with a slash looking like the anti- onion ring. Now a few days later I said I've been good! Like behavior should be rewarded?!? I got a small frie a whopping 9 points! I pull out of the drive in and crash the fries fall on the floor of my car like ha! You shouldn't eat em anyway!

Protein...

Im always looking for meal alternatives. Who isn't? I have a busy work day and don't always get the time to eat a filling lunch on those days I like to have my protein shake. This is my favorite one I usually pick it up @ trader joes. I love the texture and the flavor. The Blender ball was a gift from my mom years back and omg what was life like b4 it?

So what do you drink?

I only let myself eat this...

I caught myself today... I was at the mall... I have lost so much weight now that im loosing my shorts!

But the mall is the home of the evil kiosk of pretzels... Doc popcorn... A&W root beer & chilli dogs!

So after trying on 30 pairs of shorts. I saw the photo of the chilli dog I had to have it... Right?

I went to the dreaded food court. ( btw its located directly below all of the plus size stores! Evil!!!) I got my chilli dog and I said " I only let myself have one a month now" to the guy behind the counter.

And who am I kidding... 30 days in a month and I could probably say that 30 times... I only let myself have this----- once a month!

Food cravings

I have been having overwhelming cravings for Italian food. I do not understand why, because I'm Norwegian/German I should crave salmon or sausage and cabbage right?

But no like chicken picatta, chicken Parm, eggplant, meat sauce and spaghetti you name it! Thank god my boyfriend makes the best balls in red sauce a girl could ask for!

But what is it about Italian food that my mouth begins to water just thinking about it.

What's your motivation?

What gets you out of bed and your day going? For me it's music. I have to have a song in my heart and use that as my anchor!

Yummy lunch

I use to take advantage of whopper Wednesday$1.89 for yumminess! But now grilled chicken w/ rice grilled onions and peppers, topped with mango salsa and table spoon of cheese a white peach, strawberries and blue berries for dessert... Who am I??? LoL but I will tell you it's soo much more filling than the whopper that gave me cramps 30 min later!

Birthday cake instead of Sex

I started writing this post a week ago but wanted to get permission from the person i mention.

I recently found out a male friend of mine while going thru a divorce had sworn of relations w/ women for a period of time and replaced that feeling of satisfaction and indulgence by eating not just a slice of birthday cake but a whole cake!

I was caught off guard but I thought to myself what guy admits that? But more over how many of us do that?

I myself was a virgin thru college I spent my nights with my favorite men, Ben & Jerry, Jack Daniels just to name a few! It was safer for me to stay in my dorm room doing thesis research than it was to be in the manhattan dating scene. That's a whole different topic!

But I get it I get how it's easier to find satisfaction in food than with others ha... U don't have to deal with hearing from old Ben & Jerry that they have work in the morning or they have a headache!

So think about it!, remind yourself before u indulge is it really worth it!

One

Is one pound enough? I'm always thrilled when I'm loosing no matter the number! But one pound really? I'm busting my ass!!!

80 activity points...

When I hit my 10% goal last week I rewarded myself with a new ww pedometer!!! My first week I've earned 80 activity points!!! That's like two extra days of food!!! Wtf do I eat em? Or is this why I've been dropping weight faster? It's a predicament isn't it? Then I start thinking 80 points... That a bk fries a day... Or a hotdog a day... Or ice cream!!! I'm such a fat kid at heart! :(

Eat...

When your fat... Obese... Pleasantly plump... BBW... What ever you categorize yourself as we're all the same when it comes to controlling the Amount of food we consume. I say consume because eat sounds so Short, Clean and Neat! Show me an overweight person who can eat for a short period of time and be neat. Most of the time I have this image in mind of when I was on a farm at feeding time... The lamas sniffed it's chow... Took a mouth full and worked on it for a while... The chickens frantically pecked at the food on the ground... The goats chewed with there mouths open... But the "cleanest animals" ( sign really said that!) the pot belly pigs couldn't be bothered by people watching them... They hunted out the eggs smashed them egg yolk running down there snouts oats and what ever the mush was caked to there cheeks... They were a mess!

Where am I going with this? Well when I eat now I'm trying to be careful I don't turn into a potbelly pig with food on my face shirt hands etc when I'm eating or as frantic as a chicken! But to relax listen to my body when I'm satisfied I push the plate away. If I don't finish my dish I save it for later! I

Portion control

Recently I attempted to put a plate in the microwave it was to big!!! What's happening to the plates in America? Or are our made in china appliances getting smaller? Now when picking my plate I make sure it's about the size of my hand! It makes my meal seem more satisfying as well!